i have cried so many times today, i don't think i've cried this much in my life. that wreck put my life into perspective. i can't fight with my brothers or sister anymore, cause in the end they are the ones that are going to be here. if i hadn't buckled my sister up this morning she could be hurt or even worse and all i can do is keep replaying what happened in my head over and over, and i just think about what would have happened if i hadn't buckled jennifer up. i could have lost my sister. that is the worst feeling in the world. i literally crawled up into a ball on my floor and just cried and cried. i'm a total mess right now and idk how something like this could have happened to me just thinking about it scares me. god really was looking out for us today. i'm an awful sister for letting that happen to them. i just feel awful right now and all i can do is cry..... 

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