this is for me..

Today a guy was late for my prob and stat class, and as he was talking to Mrs. Horton about what happened, I couldn’t help but over here, since I sit right next to him but anyways… he was talking about how his car just cut off on him and his power steering just stopped working. It made me think about how I’ve been in his situation so many times before and how in that split second something could have happened and I could’ve wrecked my car, and gotten seriously hurt or worse. Thinking back now on those times where my car has just not wanted to work with me and get me to where I need to get going and how angry I got and just wanted to give up on that car I realized that wasn’t how I should have acted in that situation.. but today I’ve realized that I can’t keep doing that, I can’t keep running from God he is the only one that will be there for me in the end, he is the only one who can judge me for what I’ve done, I’ve lost touch with him and that is something that I am not proud of, I’ve also realized that I need to let go of things that have hurt me in the past… there’s a reason why it’s in the past. I have to move on with my life and just go where God wants me to go, because I know that he has a plan for me and it is something great but if I keep on living my life the way I am I can never truly be at peace and let him in. So take this as me apologizing for anything and everything, I have to learn to be the bigger person and forgive that’s the only way I can have peace within myself. If I’ve ever done anything that has hurt you, made you mad, or anything let me know. I need to know so I can try and fix things. But this is just something that I need to do; it’s not for anyone else but me. I know it’s a little late for this since we’re already three almost four months into the New Year, but this is my new year’s resolution that I plan on keeping.